notes from
the MUCK . . .

How does your garden grow? With muck, muck and more muck! I spent much of today finishing the final muck box and then shifting muck from one box to the next. The first box, which the Big Lad is enthusiastically pointing out, has been rotting down for two years now and once we’d removed the top quarter of unrotted material, we found we’d hit the pay dirt.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005


while we wait on our new contributor to make his appearance, i'd like to do some serious griping.

look, i'm not a great poker player. but i'm better than i've ever been, and i like to think that i'm at least better than most of the online players at the low limits. this notion has been born out in recent times by a fairly steady winning rate in the sit-and-go tournaments. granted, i haven't been cleaning up, but i've held my own. i started with the $5 buy-ins, then moved to the $10 ones. i put a fairly large deposit into my account with the idea of playing exclusively these very same tournaments until i had enough of a bankroll to play at the $20 level. well, a friend encouraged me to jump right to the $20s, saying my bankroll was large enough already, and that the games aren't any more challenging than the $10 buy-ins. he's given me good poker advice before, so i folded my plan and moved on up.

i should make it clear now that i'm not questioning my friend's advice - i think he was right. Instead, i'm questioning...what the hell is going on? since returning from vegas to my fresh bankroll, new broadband connection, and commitment to sit-and-go success, i have lost no less than $150 in 3 days. ???!!! what confuses me is that my friend was right - the players really aren't any better. and i'm pretty sure i'm playing the same way i was before, so....

i hate that i'm going to go here, and i know better even as i can't help myself - i gotta blame luck. this, of course, sounds shady. however, i'm at a loss for any alternative explanation. recall that i admitted right off the bat that i'm not a great player. BUT one would think that as long as i'm being consistent, my results should be fairly consistent. they are not. you lose three tournaments in a row and it kind of gets to you, but you accept the streaky nature of the game and move on. then you lose another one and you start to curse a little bit and realize you're going to have to get first place next time. then you lose again. then again. and again...

i'm resorting to blaming the cards because, frankly, my cards have sucked. in 12 tournaments in three days, i think jacks is the best hand i've seen. any other playable hands i get seem to find me out of position, and when i'm lucky enough to hit the flop, i do my job and bet only to have them end up second best. today, i was the first one out of two games when i bet and bet the best hand to the river only to have somebody chase and make a straight. then i got knocked out when i flopped the straight, bet it and got raised by some jerk on a flush draw - he called my all in (to deprive him of the odds he needed) and hit the flush on, you guessed it, the river.

at what point do i give up? maybe it wasn't meant to be, me and online poker. or is this not uncommon, this streak? or, maybe i'm wrong - maybe i'm making more (and more serious) mistakes than my opponents. i dunno, but this is getting real old, real fast.